depressed. . . . .

Well, today is the first official day of my "summer vacation". And I wanted to get my house clean, but I'm not motivated at all. I just keep thinking about babies. I just don't understand why we can't get pregnant. It's all I really want in life. When I was growing up all I wanted was to get married to a wonderful man that loved me and have a baby. I have my awesome husband, now we just need the baby. And it pisses me off to no end when I see all these young girls getting pregnant then complaining about how fat they look. . . . .  . REALLY!!! ughhh!!!

My mama had surgery yesterday. Everything went fine. She's doing good. Just sore. Which she probably will be for a few weeks. Then we got some depressing news from my grandma Grace. I just don't understand why bad things happen to good people. . . .

Well, I have the rest of this week to enjoy. Then, I have to go back to school next week for more workshops. I'm starting to really dislike this job. And the more I think about teaching 3rd grade, the more depressed I get. Guess I should be happy I have a job, but I'm not. Guess I won't ever truly be happy until I have my own child.

Me and my husband are thinking about moving to a new base in 2014. . .  we are really thinking about Hawaii or Florida. We would like to try something new and have a new adventure. We will see what happens. . . .