A lot on my mind...

Well, for starters, my hubby is on duty. That makes for a long night. I hate sleeping alone. At least I have the kids here tonight. They kept me busy. We made supper and washed clothes and played outside and read some books. Then it was bathtime. They go to bed at 8:30. I watched last night's episode of Army Wives after they went to bed. It made me cry. But that's nothing new. Lol
My husband and I had a very relaxing weekend at Myrtle Beach. We went to the pool, went shopping, drank at the martini bar, and went all out and had all you can eat crab legs and lobster! It was a great weekend. I wish it didn't have to end so quickly.

We only have 3 1/2 more days of school left! Woohoo!!! I'm so ready for a break. I just don't know what is going to happen with the kids that are living with us. . . . . . . We will see. Only time will tell. . . . . .

As much as I try to not think about babies. . . . it still happens. I see new posts everyday on FB about someone having a baby, getting pregnant, or about to have a baby. Maybe I should just quit FB for a while. But it's the best way for me to see new pics of my niece and nephew, so it's hard to just not get on. I just wish it was "Our Time"  already !!! I'm tired of waiting. I wish this was easier. I just don't understand why WE have to wait and other people who aren't prepared for a baby can get pregnant so easily. We want this more than anything in the world. I just don't understand what I did to deserve this. . . . . . I thought I did everything I was supposed to in life. I graduated HS, went to college, got a degree. Got a good job. Bought a house. Got married. Bought a new car. Took in kids that aren't even mine. . . . . What else do I have to do????? I just want a baby. I want to hold OUR baby and hear it's cry. I want to rock it to sleep everynight. I want to read bedtime stories. I want to see Justin hold him/her for the first time. I want to see the look in his eyes when he sees our baby for the first time. Is this too much to ask?????

Guess I'm going to go lay down now. . . . . . 6:00 will come way too early :(