hurricane

Well, Saturday, August 27, 2011, hurricane Irene hit NC. We lost power from Saturday morning around 7:30 until Sunday night around 8:30. We were lucky. We only have roof damage and some leaking. Other people around us were not so lucky. One house about a mile down the road had a tree fall right down the middle. Some people in Kinston still do not have power. We did not have school yesterday or today. I will be surprised if we go tomorrow. Some school were still without power as of this morning. Here are a few pics I took:

This tree is in my neighbors yard.

This is part of our roof...

Anyway... we survived. I had to throw a lot of food and ice cream away, but that was about it.

I've really enjoyed being able to stay home and be home when Justin gets home. I could definitely get used to it!

Today, I was chatting with a friend on one of my groups on FB and she gave me a link to a video about infertility. So, I listened to it. And I cried. Then, I listened to it again. And I cried again. It is so true. It talks about a woman  who gets pregnant, but has an abortion and how so many women wish that could be us. It really touched me and reminded me that I will not give up. Yes, this is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my entire life, but in the end, when I see and hear my baby's heartbeat for the first time, when I touch my baby and hold my baby for the first time, it will be all worth it. Every penny we've spent, every doctor visit, every needle stick, every pill I've taken, and every tear I've cried, it will all be worth it one day. One day, I will hear, "I love you, mommy," and I will cry and remember how long we waited and how hard we worked to get that little miracle.

So, here is a link to the video and the lyrics. I always cry even harder when she says......

What I want most

Before my time is gone,
Is to hear the words
"I love you, Mom."

You can watch it here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqfGqOx2iDQ

Jenny was my best friend.
Went away one summer.
Came back with a secret
She just couldn't keep.
A child inside her,
Was just too much for her
So she cried herself to sleep.

And she made a decision
Some find hard to accept.
Too young to know that one day
She might live to regret.

But I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
All that she had.
I would die for that.

I've been given so much,
A husband that I love.
So why do I feel incomplete?
With every test and checkup
We're told not to give up.
He wonders if it's him.
And I wonder if it's me.

All I want is a family,
Like everyone else I see.
And I won't understand it
If it's not meant to be.

Cause I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
All that they have.
I would die for that.

And I want to know what it's like
To bring a dream to life.
For that kind of love,
What I'd give up!
I would die for that.

Sometimes it's hard to conceive,
With all that I've got,
And all I've achieved,
What I want most
Before my time is gone,
Is to hear the words
"I love you, Mom."

I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
What so many have
I would die for that.

And I want to know what it's like
To bring a dream to life.
How I would love
What some give up.
I would die ...
I would die for that.