29 days left...

Well, what a SHITTY day!!!
I was all excited about today since we were going to be finding out where we would be moving to, then I got the text from Justin around 10:30am. He said we got the 1st district. My heart sank and the tears started flowing. Then, around 1pm he text me and said we got RS Albany and RSS Westchester. I'm so upset and I tried all day to hide it from him. I went to the movies with Kirsten and tried to take my mind off things, but as soon as I left her place, I lost it again. I just don't understand WHY we have to move to New York!!! I hate this. Why couldn't we have gotten the 6th district and be somewhat close to family????
I'm about to have my first baby and now I'm going to be living 12 hours away from the nearest relative. I love Justin to death, but this is just too much for me to take. I'm overwhelmed and now depressed. I feel so sorry for Justin and Corbin for having to live with me for the next 3 years up there. I just want to find a rock and hide until this horrible nightmare is over.
I'm still in shock. I can't believe this is actually happening.
When I got home, I started looking for a place to live, and I got even more upset. The only thing we are going to be able to afford is an apartment :(
I don't want to raise my baby in an apartment! We have a home here, with 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, about 1700 sq ft, our own driveway and yard... and now we aren't going to even have enough room for all of our stuff. This is so depressing! I want to take my things with me, but there just won't be enough room.
I just can't find anything positive in this whole situation except the fact that Justin won't have to deploy.

I just want to be happy with my new little family and I can't right now :( I hate this :(