Well....

Well, Today was a long day. Started off with a negative test. 15 DPO....No surprise there. I think I'm actually getting used to seeing them. Oh well... Getting a little depressed....

Anyway...
We had orientation at school today. I had 15 out of 19 parents show up, so that was good.

I'm just so tired all the time. I think I'm making too big of a deal with all this. It's like I'm obsessed with becoming pregnant. It's all I want in life right now. I think Justin and I would make great parents. We want this so bad. It's going to be the best day ever when we finally do get pregnant. I had a little bit of spotting today, not real sure why... kind of strange. My period was due yesterday, but it still hasn't come yet. I don't know how long I have to wait until I need to get a blood test to prove I'm not pregnant. I guess I will go next week and do that. It will probably just make me even more depressed. I really don't want to start round 2 of Clomid, but at the same time, if I truly am not pregnant, I don't want to wait around and waste time.
I feel like that's all I'm doing, just wasting time.... and I HATE it. It even crossed my mind to ask my doctor to just skip the next 3 rounds of Clomid (and failure) and go ahead with the IUI. I feel like I would have a higher chance of conceiving that way. But I don't know.

Ughhhh.... I just want me and my husband to be happy. I'm not saying I'm not happy, because I am. I love my husband. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I just want our family to be complete. I want him to be a daddy. It will make us so happy!
Ok... enough rant for today :)

on to tomorrow.....  16 DPO....