15 days left

Well, Today is Thursday. Justin graduates in 2 weeks. Then he flies home that night. Only 15 more days before I can hug and kiss him again. And he has lots of stuff to do when he gets home. The first thing he needs to do is mow our grass! It looks HORRIBLE! I hate our grass  being so tall ! But I can't physically do it right now and we don't have any money to pay someone to do it. Ugh
Then, he has to take the 15 bags of trash to the dump! Then, he has to take his truck to get an oil change...
And the list goes on!!!

Speaking of no money... I still don't know what to do about our sorry ass renters. We are wasting all our money on his mortgage payment when THEY are supposed to be paying us rent. We really need to get them out, but it seems like they have more "rights" to the place than we do and we own the damn house! ughhh
I honestly don't know how we are going to afford to pay for 2 mortgages, plus our new rent in CT next month. PLUS, we are having a baby next month!!! Like, REALLY!?!? Could this have happened at a shittier time? I think not!
I guess we are just going to have to not pay our mortgages for a few months so we can afford our new place in CT. It's going to ruin our credit, but I'm running out of ideas over here :(

I just wish Justin was here so he could at least help me a little bit. I get so tired just getting ready to leave the house. It's exhausting. Yesterday, I walked all over downtown Jacksonville trying to find the right person to ask about what we needed to do about this situation. I had to walk to the courthouse, then walk to the Sheriff's department, then the Magistrate's office, then finally back to my car. I was tired. Plus, I'm SUPPOSED to be on bed rest and not walking anywhere!!! But, we have to figure out how to pay our bills or we won't have anywhere to take our baby home to after he's born!

I'm just so overwhelmed right now and stressed out. I just sat in my chair this morning and just cried. I'm so tired of all the bull shit. Why do things have to be so complicated????
Maybe I shouldn't have gone out on disability. At least then I would still be getting my $1,500 check every month from work. But I'm sure if I hadn't of stopped working that our baby would have already been born by now. And that is not what I want. My baby is my number one priority right now and I just need to remember that.