tired and annoyed

I'm sick of going to marriage counseling! It just makes me even more mad after we leave!!!
Justin always has to go back to work, an hour each way, after our session. It's such a waste of gas. The main reason we started going to counseling was so we'd have one night together, and now that's ruined. I hate it. Every week she just makes me feel like a horrible wife. I'm not being "understanding" enough. Well, I say that's bullshit! Come live one day in my shoes and you will see how stressful this is. We are living 12 hours away from everybody I know. I do not know anybody up here. My son screams and cries every single night at bedtime. He won't sleep more than 2-3 hours at a time. I'm raising him by myself Mon-Fri and some weekends. We are in so much debt it's not even funny. We are about to foreclose on his house because we can't pay for it. We go into the negative every month.
I'm sick of this shit. But yet, I'M the one who needs to be more understanding. And I "signed up for this" when I married him. Um... NO. On our marriage license, it says I married Justin Alan Dihel. Not USMC.
I think it is very unnecessary for him to be at the office until midnight. Simply ridiculous.
I just want to scream. And some days, I do. .......